anomaly

i have decided i don't make much sense to myself.

i am extremely neat and organized... except when im not

i need to be structured and in control... except when i don't want to be

i am completely logical... unless i decided to listen to my heart.  

this is very interesting to me and i wonder why this change has occurred.

i used to be only neat, organized, structured, logical

but now i am not always this way

the world is more grey than the black and white of before.

but i wish i knew what changed me... so i can embrace it.